What does it feel like to hear from God? Confusing? Terrifying? Exciting? Yes.
Sitting at concert sobbing because I feel so weighed down by some unseen force. I feel lost. I feel helpless. I take a deep breath and try to enjoy the music, but I can’t, the weight gets heavier and heavier in my soul until I find myself crying out, “WHAT GOD? WHAT? What are you trying to tell me? I’m here, I’m listening, you’ve got my attention.”
Then I heard God. Not audibly, not with my ears, but in my mind, like an idea that suddenly appeared but not from my own brain. And the message? A clearer thought than most I’ve ever had, “It’s time to go. It’s time to leave Wilmington.”
I don’t know exactly how long I fought God on this. There seemed to be many arguments that were simultaneously answered. Why now, when things are so good? Why leave my friends, my beach, my church, this weather? Why would you bring me here and not let me stay?
Then began the questions of fear, what will I do? Where will I go? How will I live? What is the goal?
All at once I felt an overwhelming sense of peace. {And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Phil. 4:7} Nothing on earth can compare to the feeling that you are COMPLETELY protected, loved and that the Creator of the universe has it all figured out. That peace can be experienced, but not understood. That is the peace of complete faith.