Yesterday in church, my pastor was talking about Jesus praying before he was arrested and taken to be beaten and crucified. He (my pastor) made a statement that hasn’t left my mind since. He said, paraphrasing John 17, that Jesus was saying “Father, I know what you have promised me, so I’m going through with the task in front of me in unbroken faith.”
I feel like saying, “hey God, you promised me!” and then I hear my own petulant voice, as though God owes me something.
Jesus wasn’t yelling at God for going back on a promise, Jesus was praising Him that through the hardship and beatings and nakedness and death and COMPLETE separation from his Father, the promise was going to be fulfilled.
So God, I know what you have called me to, and I’m not thrilled with how the process is going, but I need the Holy Spirit to strengthen me to unyielding faith.